Sunday, July 25, 2010

It's a Wonderful Life

I'm dedicating this post to a great friend of mine, who really deserves to win this contest, sponsored by Dove. With everything she and her Husband have been through, it's a testament to true love that they're still together and going strong!

Please consider voting for Jen and Nelly. One vote a day. And if you vote, please leave a comment on her page, as well.

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It's a wonderful life
My husband and I have been through the wringer and we've made it out by sticking together and not giving up. When I had my now four yr old son I battled with a severe case of PPD. Long story short, my husband stuck by me and helped me through it. Together we were able to overcome the adversities that faced us in that time and I am completely confident in my marriage to this wonderful man because I know that he will stick by me no matter what! I know that it will only get better from here! My marriage is better than ever.

Thursday, June 25, 2009

What's your first Farrah Fawcett / Michael Jackson memory?

Today is a sad day for Hollywood. In fact, it's a sad week for Hollywood. First Ed McMahon, then Farrah Fawcett, then Michael Jackson.

After hearing the news, I sat watching the reports on tv. I was shell-shocked, to say the least. They kept playing the video of Michael Jackson singing "ABC", and my mind started to wander. I was thinking of all those weird little memories, usually so distant, but today brought to the forefront.

My first real memory of hearing MJ was of elementary school. I must've been in 4th or 5th grade. Our music class was held in the cafeteria, and the teacher would play a variety of music - sometimes on an 8-track, but mostly on one of those portable record players. I can still remember the record player, very clearly. It was a white box with brass corners and a brass latch on the front. The top flipped open, and the inside was fabric lined; a brown fabric with a gold pattern. During lunch, some record or another played, usually a record brought in by a student. More often than not, the record being played was a full sized 33-RPM Michael Jackson album. For some reason, we all loved the song "ABC", and it was played over and over again while we all be-bopped our way through our peanut butter & jelly or bologna & cheese sandwiches, eaten out of our metal lunchboxes adorned with images of the Care Bears or Dukes of Hazzard or Star Wars or some other iconic image of the 70's. I'm also reminded of this image every time I watch Bill Cosby's "Himself", with his children dancing in their seats at the dinner table.

Some time later, in the mid-80's, I have another prevalent memory of Michael Jackson and his music. I was allowed to buy one thing during a trip to the store (possibly Jamesway?). At the time, there were two things that I desperately wanted to buy, and I stood in the music aisle while my mother shopped, trying to figure out which one I wanted more. I ended up buying the latest Prince album (on cassette) instead of the VHS copy of "Thriller" bundled with the vinyl album. My logic was that I could still watch "Thriller" on MTV - at least until I was allowed to buy something else. It was quite some time later that I was able to buy the vinyl album, and by then, the VHS was being sold seperately. I never did buy the video.

After that, I bought almost every album of his, usually on cassette. Sometimes, I would borrow someone else's CD, and I would record it onto a blank cassette for my own music library. Cheapskate, I know. In the early 90's, my fascination with MJ waned, as did most of the country's. The last album I "ripped" from someone else was "HIStory". Somewhere, in my pile of cassettes, I still have all of those albums. Unfortunately, my pile of vinyl albums disappeared, most likely during one of my many moves.

Even though I had lost all personal respect for the man, I still have the utmost respect for his music and entertainment abilities. I am saddened by his death, but I also feel a bit of relief. At least now there will be no more accusations, whether true or false, of child abuse. And now, his mental problems are finally over, and he's no longer in emotional pain.

As for Farrah Fawcett, I was never really a big fan, although every guy I know had a crush on her at some point in their life! I rarely watched "Charlie's Angels"; that just wasn't my cup of tea. But when she made the movie "The Burning Bed", I was absolutely in awe! I never thought she was a great actress, but I thought she at least had the potential to become a good actress, doing something other than made-for-tv or B movies.

What most impressed me about Farrah was her intellect, and her struggle with cancer. I would hope that anything I do, I can have the strength that she exhibited, especially towards the end.

Both will be sorely missed.

Friday, May 1, 2009

Introspective

I've been taking a hard look at my life lately, and I've come to the realization that I know enough to know that I know so little. A concept that makes me feel much older than I really am. I'm not having a pity party, or being down on myself; I'm just taking stock of my life so far. Unfortunately, there's not alot to take stock of!

I have many talents and dreams, but I'm not sure where this life is taking me, or what I should be doing with myself. I can do a little bit of everything, but I'm not very good at any one thing.

~ I can write code for basic web pages, but I can't do complex programming.

~ I can navigate around any program and even teach people how to perform basic tasks, but sometimes the most simple thing is hard for me to wrap my head around.

~ I can do basic car maintenance like changing the oil, filters and tires and fix minor problems, but if our car breaks down, I have no idea how to get it running again.

~ I can build things with my own hands, but nothing that's of any value to anyone but myself.

~ I can cook some basic meals without burning the house down or causing anyone to suffer food poisoning, but most of the time I have to ask someone else for help when it comes to anything that doesn't come prepackaged or out of a box.

~ I'm a voracious reader, and can string together enough sentences with the proper spelling and grammar to convey my thoughts, but I don't have the ability or discipline to write the novel I've always wanted to write.

~ I'm a good parent, and always try to do right by the children I love so dearly, but I'm always second guessing myself, or wishing I'd done something differently, because I don't feel they've had everything I wanted for them.

~ I know what to eat and how to exercise to lose weight, and yet I keep gaining weight.

~ I have great accounting skills and am proficient at math, but I don't have a clue about how to invest money or live better than paycheck to paycheck.

~ I can take a decent picture, and can edit pictures to look even better, but I don't have the knowledge or equipment to take a spectacular picture.

~ I'm a good listener, and can give some great advice to people, but the thought of listening to people whine about their lives for a living gives me a headache.

~ I can teach people how to do some things, but have no desire to work in a teaching capacity, especially when it comes to other people's children.

~ I can tell a few jokes, and keep a few people at a time entertained, but public speaking makes me a nervous wreck.

~ I can carry a tune and will sing in front of my immediate family, but karaoke with friends requires at least one strong alcoholic drink.

~ I love doing all of these things, but I don't have the passion to focus on any one of them in particular.

I'm wondering: where in this world do I belong? Am I destined to just float along, doing many things inadequately or in an amateurish fashion? Is there a place for someone like me? How can I turn my many likes into a passion for just one thing?

I have to admit, I'm envious of people who excel at one thing, and can make a living from it. I was one of those people who graduated from high school not really knowing what I wanted to do with my life. I knew I wanted to work with computers, but that's about it. I was raised to know that I could do anything I wanted, but never quite given the skills to do any one thing ... I was taught a little bit of everything. I know that, somewhere deep down inside me, there's someone else fighting to get out, but I question if that person even knows what they want!

I know that after my health problems are taken care of, I'll want to be out there in the world, working for a living, contributing to the life my Husband and I have made for ourselves. But I don't know what I'm supposed to be doing! I don't want to go back and work as a cashier for the rest of my life. I know I don't want to be at the end of my life, looking back and wondering what exactly it is that I did with my life. I know I have it in me to do something bigger and better.

... but I don't know what.

Wednesday, April 29, 2009

Which bus do you ride?

So, we're on the way home from one of my doctor's appointments at the end of March. I was on a high from the good news I'd just received. We're on RT30, right in front of the Walmart in Lancaster. It's pouring down rain, so traffic was a bit slower than usual. My Husband and I are talking and laughing.

Out of nowhere, a bus passes us in the left lane, going a little too fast for the weather conditions. I start to become irritable (I detest bad drivers), when I notice the bus number. I scramble to grab my phone, so I can take a picture of it, not knowing what kind of shot I'm going to get because of the weather, and how fast the bus was moving. I quickly take the picture, then start laughing hysterically. All I could muster as an explanation to my Husband was, "Look! Bus! Number!" while pointing out the window.

For the next couple of days, every time I thought about it, I would burst into a major fit of the giggles. What's really funny, though, is that I know a couple of kids that would qualify to ride this bus ....

The short bus for evil kids

Saturday, January 3, 2009

Glue


Don't ya just hate it when you get a new roll of toilet paper, and it has so much glue on it, that by the time you get the roll started you don't need it anymore, because you've already dripped dry?!